I feel so stuck. I feel like I have to be responsible and make decisions and be a grown up and it terrifies me. This is the last summer I have with my friends before we are all in school, working full time or paying bills. Relationships are becoming more serious. Every decision I make I feel is life changing. Don’t eat bad foods because you’ll have diseases in 40 years. Graduate college or you will never be successful. Make sure you build credit because you have to have good credit to buy a house, car or get a good job. Everything is so serious and stressful and I hate it. I just want to hang out with my friends and go on adventures and be happy. I want to be with someone but not feel pressured to move too fast mentally or sexually. I don’t even believe in the things I used to anymore like unconditional love and doing a job for the happiness it pays you, not the money. I feel so suffocated and so alone. Exhaustion has become a permanent state of being and every conversation I have with anyone over the age of 27 has become a list of everything I can’t do in order to be successful. This is probably why adults are so unhappy. Ignorance is bliss.
Each time I’m asked to tell about myself, I find myself starting the same way: “My name is Kelsey and I’m nineteen..”
but what I’d really like to say is:
“My name means island of the ships but once
I found a translation that said I’m a burning shipwreck-
not a burning ship but a ship that has caught fire
after the wreckage and well, I’d say that’s more fitting.”
I’ve learned that people don’t have time for about me’s.
They need two things: a name and an indication you’re someone special.
The doctors, they want facts not details.
“I broke my leg when I was three, it’s a funny story actually-“
The right or the left?
The teachers, they want interests, hobbies.
You’re sad, yes, but what do you like to do?
The adults are a spew of questions.
What school do you go to? What classes are you taking?
What do you plan on becoming? Got a boyfriend?
People my own age are the worst.
“I’m planning on an English degree with a concentration in creative writing.”
Yeah, aren’t we all. So how many times have you, you know,
I’m pulled apart, my interests travelling highway 2
my goals at a stop light at traffic hour,
my medical history on a billboard for the world to see.
But what about me?
Where’s the chance to say,
“I hang on to fistfuls of poetry like loose change in my pockets,
and I keep waiting for the day that the world turns upside down
so I can swim with the stars.
I’m not afraid of darkness, it’s a loneliness I can empathize with it.
It’s the blackholes like cigarette burns inside of me that get troublesome.
I walk through graveyards and read the dashes between years,
each a story I’ll never know. Sometimes I create my own.”
No one, none of us know who we are anymore."
You are calm and reposed
Let your beauty unfold
Pale white, like the skin stretched over your bones
Spring keeps you ever close
You are second-hand smoke
You are so fragile and thin, standing trial for your sins
Holding on to yourself the best you can
You are the smell before rain
You are the blood in my veins
The World’s Most Beautiful Museums
“In poetically well built museums, formed from the heart’s compulsions, we are consoled not by finding in them old objects that we love, but by losing all sense of Time.” - Orhan Pamuk
In honor of International Museum Day, we assembled a list of our favorite museums around the world. Museums house the world’s treasures—be they artistic, scientific or historical—and in turn they are often designed to reflect or enhance the collections they host.
See more museum photos from across the Instagram community by browsing the location pages for these museums below.
- The Metropolitan Museum of Art - New York City, United States
- Museo Guggenheim - Bilbao, Spain
- The J. Paul Getty Museum - Los Angeles, United States
- State Hermitage Museum (Госуда́рственный Эрмита́ж) - St. Petersberg, Russia
- New Museum (@newmuseum) - New York City, United States
- Museum of Islamic Art - Doha, Qatar
- Jardines et Musée de Claude Monet - Giverny, France
What the city is missing: Thierry Cohen photographs cityscapes and then photographs deserts at night, combing the two to show us what our cities would look like with the lights off. The stars are not enhanced, they are actual photos from relative latitudes that would expose the same starry sky view if it weren’t for light pollution. Click on each photo to see which city it is.
Light pollution and pollution in general
ruins your lungs
dries out all your tears
leaves you lying awake at 4 in the morning
wishing you weren’t alive"
I’m willing to watch that horrible movie just over this sappy feelgood stuff.